I Regret It: I Made a Mistake Breaking Up with My Boyfriend

Breaking up with someone is never easy. But breaking up with the one person you thought was meant for you, that’s a whole different story. You start second-guessing yourself, wondering if you made the right decision or whether it was all just a huge mistake. Well, let me tell you, I’ve been there and done that. And now? Now I regret it.

The Break-up Blues

First of all, let me say that break-ups are no joke. They can leave you feeling like someone ripped out your heart and stomped on it repeatedly for good measure. That being said – I broke up with my boyfriend (let’s call him John) six months ago because we weren’t happy anymore – at least not together.

At first it felt like such a relief; finally able to breathe without carrying around this heavy burden of dissatisfaction every day! It seemed so easy at the time; we both agreed that things were better off ending sooner rather than later before they got worse.

But as time went by and each passing day became more unbearable without John by my side – well now hindsight is 20/20 after all isn’t it?

One True Love(?)

Let’s backtrack…John and I had been dating for three years when our adventure started going downhill in what feels like seconds- suddenly constant arguing replaced cute smiles exchanged during conversations.It got to the point where even saying ‘I love you’ felt forced , we knew in our hearts something had to change between us.

In retrospect,didn’t everybody also see the signs too? We were not loving life together anymore.If only back then somebody could have yelled “Stop!” across from us,saying “Think twice about this”. Maybe today things would be very different..

But alas,no save button on reality,

Looking back,I now know breaking up was unnecessary and would even go as far to say it was a mistake that I could’ve done without.

Watch out for the Grass!

I thought dumping John would be just what we both needed, alas it seemed like entropy just steamed from there. When you break up with someone,you think grass will be greener on your side,but little did I know how wrong this idea is!

Besides when making plans about going over these fences towards this so-called “greener grass,” remember that things may not always pan out in the way that they were promised.

Let’s use an analogy: Imagine you have been dying to enjoy some sweet,sweet macarons ever since hearing their hype almost everywhere..

When finally tasting them however – maybe realizing salty flavors are actually your preference? Even worse,what if everything within looked utterly different than expected?

The point here is – don’t take what’s beyond one fence for granted,and expect true love after every fracture.The “Grass isn’t always greener” should apply literally & metaphorically!

Apologies All Around

But wait…it wasn’t all sunshine and roses while we were together either.It wasn’t really anybody’s fault;we were simply two people who had grown apart over time.However,I quickly discovered not having each other outweighed any problems present while with each other.Without John by my side now..let’s face nothing felt right about our split at all.

In fact,the only thing not feeling amiss in life regularly involved pondering regret ,filling me with remorse almost constantly! The damn irony…

You can bet though,today anytime shots of romantic couples or happily married friends come up —a spontaneous apology (in my head) shoots across,everytime .

Biggest regret? Breaking up solely out of fear of trying again & making those mistakes made before rather than working through the issues between the two of us at that time.

A Look Back

Shall we go down memory lane now? Seems that’s all I’m ever doing these days. Here are three reasons the break-up should not have happened:

1 – There Was Still Chemistry

Despite our troubles,there still remained a spark between John and I nonetheless.Those moments where both looking into each others’ eyes,giggling,feeling like nothing could stand in the way……

But with new baggage comes fresh sets of problems,tending to overshadow what sparked our love from day one.Does this resonate anywhere by any chance?

2 – History is History…

Stressful arguments would occur,yet was only able to see my pain point rather than his perspectives.And god forbid afterwards trying smoothing things over afterward forgetting even why they became heated..

In hindsight,to me it feels almost too late being savvy enough to recognise patterns in behavior forming such imbalanced,damaging situations . If every lover’s tiff becomes anything similar there may be cause for some self reflection involved .

Knowing how precious memories are seems incongruous given issues before, but maybe just thinking about foundational times themselves can give rise to emotions worth grounding relationships again for itself.

Fun fact: simply reminiscing about past activities engaging presently inactive synapses involved as cost-effective therapy!

3 – John Deserved an Effort Made

As alluded earlier,the decision made ultimately came from shared views.One might will wish however there went another way outlandish – us not valuing what invested work has come towards those final months.But let’s move forward & reflect on differences John deserved seeing ironed out back then instead of leaving everything behind.(maybe get you inspired?)

Please understand:,we’ve been through too many struggles together ,laughing tears even brought us closer.Dreams once built together left unfinished suddenly..now blooming like flowers everyday in front of us in twice the speed.

Yet with a snap of fingers and coming to understand what potentially could have been missed,now whatever cherished about this lost relationship seems now unattainable,far gone from any possible remedy.

Maybe making amends can’t always get everything back to how they were but it sure as hell’s worth a try – doesn’t John deserve that?

Wrapping It Up: In Conclusion

So there you have it – why I regret breaking up with my boyfriend. If only we had “toughed it out” instead of resorting directly towards ending things (tips hat), things may still be rosier than that situation proved after divorcing body versus soul .

But at least now I know what I want..regaining hope and nourishing some trust in myself left ,knowing someday love will find me again.I don’t blame John for anything unlike before,yet kinda funny how admitting our own part taken counts separately.(Or not?)

Is there someone who comes frequently into your thoughts & every start-up birthday wish or New Years resolution orbits around their name while wondering …what if? Take note! Sometimes one particular significant other really might be irreplaceable.Will happiness always wait,if grinding away second chances timelessly?
Only thing certain is life’s unpredictable nature,but pressing reset on abandonments late isn’t… so many hours thinking spent was nothing short of dysfunctional headspace.Shhh,maybe living happily-ever-after will belong once more solely within fairy tales.

Unfurl yourself- make forever together happen once more(if need be). Often times truest feelings seem concealed somewhere deep inside…but then again mettle never show empty handed!

Best regards,

-Anonymous

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